🏷 #scopophobia — 6 posts
IMG Jan 2

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“… [ ASSISTANT ]? Are you still with me?”

“Oh, good. You were spacing out rather badly there- I got worried about you.”

“Look… You seem exhausted. I know I’ve completely lost track of time- how long have you been at this for…?”

The Professor’s expression softens. Ace reaches a hand out, gently pulling you to your feet.

“I think you’ve more than earned a little break from all this work… Why don’t you head back upstairs? Given I’ll be staying down here for the time being, what’s mine upstairs is yours- just don’t steal any money, hah! Drink some water, get some food… look around and get familiar with the place! And take care- make sure to wash up and rest.”

“I’m… Sure I’ll be upstairs by the time you’ve wrapped up all of your business and gotten some shut-eye. But for now, you’ve gotten enough eyestrain and excitement for the day.”

Gently, the Professor gestures away from your desk, encouraging you to stretch your legs… It’s hard to say no to those gentle and encouraging eyes.

[ … Might as well. ]


WELCOME BACK TO MISSING NUMBERS.

“FIRE” RED YUUJI / “GLITCHY” RED TAJIRI / LEAF AOYAMA ARE NO LONGER AVAILABLE FOR QUESTIONS(?).

PROFESSOR ACE MAPLE IS AVAILABLE FOR QUESTIONS.

EXPLORATION OF ACE’S LAB AND HOME IS NOW AVAILABLE.

INSERT INSTRUCTIONS ON WHERE YOU WOULD LIKE TO GO, WHAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO DO, AND WHAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO CLOSER INVESTIGATE, INTO THE ASKBOX; AS WELL AS ANY FURTHER QUESTIONS FOR ACE.

And don’t forget to wash up and rest.

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TXT Dec 9

QUIXOTE - MISSING NUMBERS

Warnings for: Blood, Scopophobia, Animal Death (loneliness), Flashing Images, Body Horror

this is a wip possibly forever but i wanted to share on Tumblr! (English lyrics from here!)

QUIXOTIC ; Foolishly impractical, especially in the pursuit of ideals.

QUIXOTE ; One who is quixotic.

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IMG Oct 25

WARNING: FLASHING/GLITCHING IMAGE UNDER THE CUT.

This also contains descriptions of gore and body horror.

[ @pkmn-monochrome - Previously… ]

Red narrows his eyes as he stares down at Cody, shutting up and listening as they explain. The corners of his lips twitch as they finish, the shadow cast over his eyes falling ever so slightly heavier.

“… So, that’s how it is, hm?”

“Barely… any different…”

“… Exactly what I…”

“…”

“I’ve gotta say, you’ve really got a way with words! You’re so articulate when you’re scared, Cody.”

He snickers to himself, hopping off the grave and pacing around, looking between the other and the Ghosts.

“Observant, too~! You’re right, I really couldn’t be bothered to care what you think of me. I’m not exactly here to make friends. I’m sure that’d the last thing you’d want, anyways! See, I’m just here to satiate some curiosity.”

He leans in front of Blastoise, tilting his head.

“I would like to formally apologize to the oversized Sobble-in-a-shell for my language. I’m not exactly used to being around others… Twenty-six years of imprisonment wouldn’t really teach a guy to have a filter, heh.”

He waves a hand nonchalantly, completing the circle.

“And as for your marketable figurine of a rat, well… I’m not interested in being a snotty kid forever. Unfortunately, I don’t need any hacking done to screw up my game badly enough to change some things around.

But, hey… I’m not here to make chit-chat with a couple of one-note monsters. It’s all about you, the most REAL one in this room. Cody, Cody, Cody, star of the show~! Let’s get back to the point. I know you don’t exactly think highly of… things like me. What was it you told that one poor girl- ‘You’ve had more than a decade to get over yourself,’ right?”

He throws his head back, cackling as if the old remark is the funniest thing he’s heard in his life.

“I meant it when I said that I don’t CARE. But I AM nosy, and your vitriol towards REDs in particular is just so interesting… Even seein’ the face clearly strikes a nerve. So honestly, I’d LOVE to hear EXACTLY what you’re thinking…”

“If only you were willing to spit out any fighting words, that is! But you’ve been so much more polite than I expected, after all the reading I’ve done…”

He passes by in front of the other, looking off into the distance.

In that moment- a moment of passing footsteps, of the blink of an eye, of a lack of care… something heavy fills the air.

A damning presence looks down on Cody with a dozen eyes, countless mouths, gnashing teeth and twitching claws, two hundred and fifty-five whispering voices. It’s a disgusting and shambling creature, a sick and unholy patchwork of amalgamated hearts and yellowed blood, wrapped up in tattered flesh and backwards fur, mismatched feathers and scales and blubber and skin. Writhing, wheezing, bleeding, rotting, every misplaced piece existing out of sync.

Something impossible. Unknowable. Invalid.

The feeling it imposes upon them is suffocating. Like not breathing for years, like something vile filling their lungs, a sickness that is rising, thrashing, tearing, desperate for a taste of “fresh meat” if one could even call a dead trainer that anymore.

“It almost seems like there’s something you’re worried about,” the voices from within it hiss, layered countless times under the casual and teasing tone of Red’s own that is lost under the madness…


… Yet the instant the words spill from his lips, that awful sensation is gone as quickly as it arrived. Everything is as it should be. Despite how intense it was… It was little more than two seconds of some sick kind of illusion.

Was it even real? Was that pain all false? Red hasn’t lifted a finger, no less even looked Cody’s way.

It’s as if nothing even happened.

“I wonder, I wonder, what it could be~?” the man babbles on as he walks away, feigning ignorance- because he must be, he must be screwing around with them at this point, right? How could he NOT be?

And now he’s laughing- giggling to himself under his breath, like this whole ordeal is some joke that only he’s in on.

“After all, I’m just some harmless little video game character. I’m not even real, right?” he chides, “Certainly nothing like one of your big bad players who could crush your shoddy little cartridge cause you decided to be a little bi…”

He trails off, managing to catch himself.

“… Decided to misbehave. What, you don’t think I hold any real power over this place, do you~? I can’t cause…”

“… Permanent damage.”

He slows to a stop several paces away from the monochromatic trainer, spinning on his heel to look at them with a smile that could be described as warm, but…

From heart, to flesh, to grin- there’s not a single warm thing about this man in this moment. Only proven further by a final remark, laced with a threatening kind of curiosity.

“So would you like to stop trying to play nice and tell me what you really think of me… Or are you gonna let me get bored?”

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IMG Oct 13

[ @pkmn-monochrome - interaction thing i can’t send as an ask bc long and images]

The dark of the Pokemon tower is never something that has bothered Red. Never something that would, certainly not after seeing much worse and being much older.

At this point, really, it’s a kind of eeriness he’d come to miss. It reminds him of simpler times- days when a young boy only had to fear things like ghost stories, and shadows that lurked in the dark.

He knows very well that this place is not the Pokemon Tower he knew, of course. He’s not stupid. This place was only built in its image, the miserable ending of a game dyed in grey and built out of spite.

He runs a hand along the wall of the staircase he descends, feeling the cold stone, yet also the intangible data, dull static and code under the fingertips. Watches in quiet fascination as the textures distort and corrupt under deliberate contact, the broken foundations of Generation 1 reacting to him, (same as always,) but a touch more stable from the fusion of the bastard remakes keeping it grounded.

Any damage caused is meaningless, the existence of it debatable as a whole, as he passes through a loading zone. Half of him watches everything fade to black, the other half just continues down the steps that are as tangible as anything else here is to someone within the game. Everything is right- just as it should be.

Either way, it’s not like it’s his game to break. That would be plain rude, especially with the risk of killing someone!

Intrigue in this world, curious as it may be, isn’t why he’s here.

Nah. He’s more interested in something else.

Or, someone, to be more precise.

Having finally found who he’d looking for, Red steps off the stairs and into another layer of this endless graveyard, whistling as he finally lays eyes on a certain monochromatic individual.


“Y'know…” he chides from across the room, “A graveyard’s a pretty cliche place to spend eternity, don’t you think?”

He snorts at his own remark. “Course, I guess it’s not like you had a choice. The sadsack that made this game could’ve picked something a little more outside the box, is all I’m saying. Do you think they’d bury bodies in the Viridian Forest, maybe? Or swimming offa Route 20, try a little watery grave… Oh, Champion’s Road could be pretty morbid!”

He sighs and folds his arms, shaking his head at himself.

“… Nah, I’m joking. I can see the vision. I could give less of a shit about this place, anyways…”

His eyes gleam, and a menacing smile spreads across his face.

“I’m more interested in you. A glorified reskin of Pokemon Tower ain’t shit compared to you. A little bug told me about some sentient Red-Leaf kinda amalgamation with the memories of a real person, and I just had to look into it and come to see for myself. Lo and behold…”

He spreads his arms out in some kind of almost-mocking grand gesture.

“Here you are! Cody, right? In the flesh, or… I suppose your problem is the lack thereof, heh.”

He begins to approach, moving slowly and never once looking away. He stalks forward, every step careful and deliberate, teeth bared in a grin that holds no happiness but oozes with amusement.

“I’ve got so many questions, I don’t even know where to begin. You’re really something special… One of a kind, fully aware of everything. Knowing what life both here, and out there, is really like. I’ve seen players that would kill to even get a chance to stand where we do, but… You want out more than anything.”

Scratching his chin, the man walks around them at a slight distance. Red gets the thought that Cody wouldn’t want something like him anywhere near them. At least he can respect that.

“Suppose the courteous thing would be to ask a question- that’s the tradition around these parts, right? Constantly interrogating you so you don’t have to sit here, alone with your…”

His eyes flicker to the two GHOSTs at Cody’s side.

“… Thoughts. And the like.”

He hops onto a grave nearby, sitting with his ankles crossed. Respect towards the dead be damned, every tomb in places like this were about as sacred as Halloween decorations.

“Here’s what I’d like to know, Cody.”

His smile widens further- for a brief moment, the glitches on his body seem to spread to the air around him, cutting through the gray with burning streaks of red, white, and yellow.

“You have your hacker’s memories. Some of them. ANY of them. It’s enough. You’d know what it was like to be them. You know what it was like to be human. You know both worlds.”

What is it like? To be real? To be something more than code. How different is it from this?

What was it like to be HUMAN?

He jabs a finger forward, pointing at them as the static that flared up around him quickly subsides, clearing the air back into the typical oppressive atmosphere of the endless graveyard.

“I want to hear it from you,” he finishes cooly, “someone who has been on both sides of the screen. You could tell me better than anyone.”

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IMG Sep 5

HOW IT FEELS TO DISAPPEAR: DESCENT

WARNINGS: Scopophobia, Disturbing Imagery, Blood.

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[Take it with you.]

A strange feeling washes over you as you stare down at the Eevee. Those whispers in the back of your mind, demanding that you leave it behind. But looking into those wide, scared eyes… You swear, you can see them welling up with tears.

You don’t have it in you to go without it.

You walk back across your room, grabbing your bag lazily hanging off your desk chair. Eevee eagerly follows after you, still trembling but starting to wag its tail- you figure it knows what you’re doing. As soon as you open the bag up and kneel down, it jumps inside, quickly nestling up in the pillow and fuzzy blanket you’ve lined the bottom with- this had quickly become its favorite way to stay at your side, so you’d at least had enough sense to make it a bit more comfortable… It makes it impossible to close it in, but you haven’t needed to hide it, and you figure that won’t change- there’s only one person you’re deliberately hiding it from, anyways…

You sling the bag over your shoulder, ruffling a hand through the fur on Eevee’s head. It purrs, rubbing against you.

With that, you’re pretty sure you’ve got everything you need… You walk downstairs tiredly, only dully noticing how Miss Hazel isn’t in the kitchen or living room like she’d usually be right now… Probably out on some errand, you think, as you continue on towards the front door and swing it open.

You’re met face to face with a certain young man, his hand raised awkwardly, apparently going to knock just as you’d opened the door.

Blue Oak stares at you, almost dumbfounded at your impeccable timing.

“… Uh… Hey, Leaf- I’m, uh. I’m sorry to bother you,” he starts, bringing his hand down to rub over his arms. “I was starting to… Worry, I- I hadn’t- I haven’t seen you since… And I was thinking, like, that’s not like her, but I didn’t want to…..”

He trails off. Looks away. Blue was never the most open of books, and you watch with tired eyes as he searches for his words. He opens his mouth, shuts it- he looks you up and down, expression seeming to toe the line between confusion and concern as he processes the state you’re in.

Discomfort, anxiety, awkwardness- you watch the tension shatter into a frozen, mortified horror as his gaze locks onto your bag.

Confusion briefly crosses your mind as to what could possibly illicit that reaction from him, but as Blue steps backwards, it hits you all at once:

Your bag is wide open. Eevee stares up at him, bristling and snarling at the boy.

You suck in a breath through your teeth, hurrying to try and explain yourself and that it really isn’t aggressive, it’s just scared, but Blue speaks before you can get a single word out:

“You need to get rid of that thing.”

What?

“What?!” you exclaim, instantly echoing the whirl of confusion in your mind. “You can’t- Blue, you’re joking, right?”

You can already tell he’s not joking. That’s what confuses you the most. He’s trembling as if he saw a ghost, all the color drained from his face and his fingernails practically tearing into the armbands he always wore.

A voice in the back of your mind chides; he’s right, you know. You ignore it.

“Leaf- Leaf, please, you have to listen to me-” he stammers out, his unsteady voice dropping to a near whisper as he backs further away. “Please- that Eevee, it’s- it’s a-”

You move forward, wanting to soothe and listen to him in spite of your confusion.


When you step out of your front door, you are not in Palette Town.

Blue is gone. The afternoon sunshine is gone. The buildings outside your home are gone. The green grass and dirt pathways are gone.

You look behind you. Even your home is suddenly dark, and completely empty. As if it’s been abandoned for years.

You look back to your surroundings, fear rising in your chest and stinging like bile.

A dense fog shrouds the area, blinding and suffocating. You can barely see your own two feet. You squint, trying to forcibly steady your breathing as you take a hesitant step forward.

… You nearly run face-first into a fence. You hold onto the wooden posts, trying to gather your wits and see what’s going on. It’s a tall fence, painted white… It’s too tall to reasonably climb over- certainly not with the dew from the fog slicking it up, and while it has gaps big enough to see through, they’re more than narrow enough to keep you or even Eevee from squeezing through.

Dully, you imagine the bars of a jail cell. You shiver.

Looking a bit closer, you can faintly make out trees on the outside. It seems like… The autumn leaves have come in. You watch the fuzzy shapes of leaves dancing through the air and onto the ground, one landing close enough for you to make out the dazzling red. It compliments the wilted, brown grass well, you think bitterly.

… That’s all you’re able to gather, though. You turn to your right, seeing that the fence seems to connect to the house that way…

It’s the opposite direction that seems to open up, making a narrow dirt path, fully enclosed by white wood.

A part of you wants to optimistically think that at least you’re not trapped, but you… You don’t know how much you really believe that. But no matter what you want to think, one thing is clear:

There’s only one way to go.

You start walking.


… The path seems to stretch on, but you find yourself grateful that it’s straightforward. With this awful fog, you’d only feel queasier about any unpredictability… And there’s the little things- lazily running one hand along the wood keeps you on a straightforward path and the cool dew on your skin helps to keep you alert.

You think it’s been more than a few minutes of walking, though. Maybe this strange place can read you, somehow, because just as you’re starting to space out, you spot something in the distance-

A person…! You instantly perk up, recognizing some kind of human silhouette through the fog ahead. They seem to be sitting cross-legged on the ground, slumped back against the fence behind them, but you’re sure of it- you’re sure of it. Someone else is here!

You pick up the pace a bit, eager to have company, or answers, or anything. You ignore Eevee’s whimpering as your approach the stranger.

… As you get closer, though, you start to understand its worry.

You begin to make out details on them as you close the gap between you and the stranger.

Or… Lack thereof.

This is not a human.

You slow to a stop in front of them. You can feel your legs shaking, that primal part of your mind screaming to run.

Its body seems to be that of an older man’s- you think vaguely of those gamblers you fought outside of Vermilion City… That’s where the traces of humanity seem to end, though. The ghastly man is vaguely see-through, he seems to have no mouth, and he’s completely void of color, every last feature a stark and unnatural white.

He’s like a ghost, you think to yourself. But you don’t think he’s noticed you… You start to back away to continue down the path, hoping to avoid whatever danger this thing might pose.

Too late, though. He suddenly opens his eyes.

Seems like you were wrong about one thing, you think as you feel your mouth run dry.

A crimson gaze bores into you, and you watch in horror as the place where his mouth should have been rips open- all so he can flash you an awful, bright red smile. Blood trickles from his lips and bulging eyes, as if it weren’t truly parts of his face, but open wounds.

Your paralyzing terror only increases as he sneers at you, motioning to the trembling Eevee in your bag.

“HAH… REALLY? ALL IN FOR THAT LOST CAUSE… CAN’T YOU DO BETTER, GIRL?”

What do you do?

Run.

Retort.

agree. leave the eevee.

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IMG Sep 4

HOW IT FEELS TO DISAPPEAR: DESCENT

Note: well, it’s all downhill from here. also FUCK its 2am again.
WARNINGS: Scopophobia, Disturbing Imagery, Blood.

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[“I was just wondering if you were ready to go!”]

Thinking quickly, you decide to just play innocent. If you can’t lie, why not just… Avoid the truth?

“I was just wondering if you were ready to go!” you exclaim, folding your hands behind your back and smiling down at him. He looks up at you, quirking an eyebrow. He looks like he wants to question you further, but… He sighs, and just shakes his head.

“Not yet bud. Sorry,” he replies simply. “You can go on ahead, though. I’ll be fine. ‘sides, I didn’t exactly ask you to come in the first place, did I?”

You feel your cheeks heat up a bit. He’s got you there- you had really insisted on tagging along, and here you are, wandering off and trying to drag him away before he wants to leave… How rude!

He must notice how you’re quietly kicking yourself, because his expression softens into a warm smile.

“Hey- don’t sweat it. Remember, we’re neighbors, Leaf. You can come and bug me any time you want. Promise.”

That gets you to calm down a little. Sometimes you forget, you’ll admit… You’re lucky that Blue turned out to be so patient with you, despite everything.

You’re grateful to have him by your side.

“You got it!” you finally chime in reply. “Well… I guess in that case- I’ll see you soon, okay? I’ll make sure to come over!”

He nods, standing up before you get on your way. You can see him mulling something over in his mind, judging by the look on his face…

Before you can question, he leans in, squeezing you tight in a hug.

The worry of oh Gods what if he feels the bag flashes across your mind, but…

You can tell that’s not what he’s doing. You relax into your friends arms, returning the gesture with all the warmth you can muster.

After a long moment, Blue pulls away, averting his gaze and rubbing a hand over his eyes.

“Alllllright, get outta here,” he insists, “And don’t tell anyone I’m going soft, you got that?!”

You beam and nod quickly. “Course! Big Bad Blue Oak being a hugger… Your secret’s safe with me!” you chime, before turning to jog off towards the exit.

“I’ll come visit soon!!!” you call over your shoulder, waving goodbye. You see him wave back at you, before you lose sight of him as you hop down the stairs.

Once you’re outside of the tower, you call out your Dragonite, and fly home. You hope to visit Blue tomorrow… But for now, you’ve got an Eevee to take care of.



Two weeks pass.

Trying to nurse the Eevee back to health has been more difficult than you anticipated. You’ve tried everything. You’ve fed and watered it well, played with it, slept with it, tried a whole variety of medicines and home remedies.

No matter what you tried, its condition just won’t improve, and it looks just like how you found it, if not worse. Worried about deeper ailments, you even managed to drag it into a Pokemon center last week, in spite of its screams and protests. The nurses did a checkup and everything- nothing abnormal came up, other than the stuff you already knew, that it was scrawny and runty and whatever. The only remarkable things you took away from the visit was the surprising strength of the claws on the little bugger, and that weirdo Nurse Joy who told you to “be careful with a Pokemon like that.”

It’s like they assumed you just waltzed in with an untrained wild Eevee!

It frustrated you so much that you just went back to trying to treat it yourself. Of course, Eevee calmed down as soon as you got home, and you’ve barely left the house since then- you can’t bear to leave it alone for how bad its separation anxiety is.

At least it doesn’t act up at home like it did in the Center… Other than that one day, it’s been nothing but a little angel for you.

… You’re regretting not getting out more, and you wish so badly you could just take it with- especially to visit your friend, like you keep meaning to… But you’ve noticed, every time you mentioned visiting your neighbor, Eevee freaks out and hides. You figure it’s one of those abused Pokemon that’s afraid of men, honestly. The thought makes you chuckle- a cruel means of gender affirmation for the boy, if you could tell him. But… You’ve decided to continue keeping its care a secret from him for now.

Still, not leaving the house as much as you do usually is taking a toll. You feel like you’re coming down with some kind of awful cabin fever- For one, you’ve started losing your appetite… Add on general weakness, sleeping in later and going to bed earlier, and increasingly frequent headaches, and you’d have already been worried.

But these past few days have gotten… Severe.

You think you’re starting to hallucinate.

White figures peering through your windows. Whispers in the back of your mind. Bloodstains throughout your house.

You’ve decided this has gotten bad enough. You’re going to the hospital.

You roll out of bed. Trudge over to your closet- throw on the simplest clothes you can find- a comfortable black dress with pockets, black slippers, and your trusty old bucket hat. You just grab your wallet and turn to leave, half-dazed as you start towards downstairs before something grabs at your legs.

Don’t leave me.

You look down at the Eevee, as it chirps, cries, and paws at you fearfully. In the exhausted state you’re in, you’d almost forgotten about your little buddy.

Despite how much it hates leaving the house…

It wants to come with.

LEAVE IT.

LEAVE IT.

LEAVE IT.

L E A V E I T .

Take it with you.

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